Saturday, December 27, 2025

Who

 

Once a runner, a dreamer, a saint
A brother, a son, perhaps a mate,
I’ve known God, them devils too
Knelt before Buddha and Guanyin’s shoe,
Been seduced by drunken solace late
Mother Mary’s trace, Tara’s neural embrace
The feminine shouts for the masculine,
The masculine yells for the feminine,
The strength of a warm river surging
The energy of a cold ocean churning
I am somewhere, in the galactic mind
in some cobwebbed cubby-hole too
A mouse, a scorpion, a viral flu
A surfer in Hawaii, a maid in Timbuktu
I am somebody else, uncertain who
 
5.9.2025

Pastel Sky


 I settle in numbness, looking long
To all those lies of youth now gone,
But still the mountain top is strong,
Pink the sky, feint blue the distant snow,
On foot perhaps, towards the pastels go
On foot perhaps, towards the glow
 
 
13.09.2025


This Be The Curse

 

This Be The Curse
It fucks you up your ego does
It does not mean to but it do
It fills you with the faults you cuss
And a random extra few
But it was fucked up in its way
By angry goateed pianists
Who half had left the worldly fray
And half had eyes for organists
Our egos hand on miseries
They deepen like a dirge
Wear earplugs for your soliloquies
Or leave before the urge
 
(22.11.2025)

Friday, April 04, 2014

Playing with an idea


The embers of you
Memories still burning
Few but reaching far
Into the evening dark

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Sparks falling with snowflakes
On my lap


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Sparks falling on my lap
It's cold, they skip off
Leaving snowflakes


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Embers pip and fizz
I drip tears on them
Seeing snowflakes

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Charcoal blanketed by snow
Last winter's fire


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Snow blankets charcoal
Embers slowly disappear
Last winter's sex


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Last time I saw you
You shed tears like snowflakes
Melting slowly down the window
Today I see you playing
Out with the boys, wanted


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Growth like a fire stoked
Roaring in adolescence and young adulthood
Peaking in self-belief and prowess
To fall again and plateau in calm refrain
And then the fizzing and spitting
Flakes of white fall
Covering what once was wild abandon
Now becoming wild wet pips
That flop the final heat
Into the eyes of cross-legged youth
Drinking and thinking of what can be
A new flame to blaze
And if one were to see it all
Like I do now in my mind's eye
Pips of yellow would spark in your eyes
And descend with the white snowflakes
Somehow falling inside your ribcage
And you'd be like Adam
Somehow chosen to be the forming substance
Of something unique and real
And beyond the world of substace
A human existence spunked by the ethereal


18.02.14



Dog

I fell in love with your insanity today
Barking like a deranged lunatic
Glorious moon could be shining
But you are so sensitive inside
Easily won over to our gentle poise
Wagging your tail in ecstasy

26.02.14

Tuesday, March 04, 2014

 Last time

Last time I saw you
You shed tears like snowflakes
Melting slowly down the window,
Today I see you playing
Out with the boys, wanted

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Walking Out On Cornish Coastlines

I miss the soaring heart of 'travel', conjured in one word, like a ball of wonderment and release from the existential cage.  Finally, me and my backpack, walking up paths of solitude - like salve to my suppressed wounds.  To walk together is necessary.  To walk alone is glorious.  Circling eagles, in their pain, hungry on cold winter mornings, yearning for flesh - they paint patterns on my sky.

Friendship stays me and a tension is built between their love and my passion for exuberant expenditure in ravenous madness on holy mountains.  Together a potent balm is made, like the rush of blood blotting out the agonies of cold and loneliness.  Why sit calm and stay, when in madness I live on the rooftop of the world.

Glowing orange smiles beckon to me in this bulb from from which I flower ecstasies.  Ah, all the world is put down.  Your work.  Your craft.  Your crafted kindness working on me.  So nice and lovely and soothing - and necessary - sapping the virility of me after a while.  And I ask leave of you for a moment, to skip, and piss on rocks and muse with dandelions about Plato and Nietzsche.  Both are necessary.  Your fingers.  Your hair.  The sunset.  My passion to beat the dirt track and slip on loose rock, just for the heck of it, and scramble up a bit, and laugh with the boy I once was.  To holler with seagulls. 

If youth was eternal I'd smoke a cigarette and ponder the perplexity of 'being', looking down at lapping shorelines, like the curves of fingerprints moving to the rhythms of life.  And I would think of you there, on my grassy granite, held in the arms of now, touched by your kindness still reaching out to me, and energizing me to live alone for this moment, looking down on Cornish flowers and looking forward to the ruddy Cornish smiles down at the tea and scone shop. 

Friday, October 04, 2013

NEVER

I'll never be your someone, your puppet
Stringed along for selfish "love"
Clasped in your pocket, distorted in bed
By chains of love and slavery

I've read too much of poetry
To succumb to the drudgery of money
And petty games of gallantry
Go find your gold-toothed gentry!

I'll never be your obedient one
Enough that you could fuck me
Or ask, how high to jump dear
Nor be your dressed dummy

I've seen too much abandonment
To hold it all in one pot dear
I'll splurge it for one pop there
On some bus all cramped, no care

I'll never be with you dear
I fear you will not see me
As I pass you by, dirt in hair
I've lost touch with your society

I've seen how they pat and prattle
Kiss together in the saddle
I'll never have your touch dear
Forsaking cotton for your skin


07.08.13
To Swish

I used to swish and swosh with you
In mire, like pigs we aspired
To lick the dirt from screams
Desert the mean dying weens

What fun I had then, free... in Kerouac's dreams
No burden of the thinking man
No duty to my fellow woman

Just songs, poetry, thoughts with booze
The shackles shaken with busted moves
And curvacious ladies' ooze

Always though towards some realm
Ideas like sap sucked up the elm
How long can you go on delaying?
The flower must blossom, unless
You poison it with L & M and rum


23.07.13

Thursday, September 26, 2013

WOMAN 2

Woman, your comely smile, your style
Your bum protruding, your brooding
Your sway, your seizing the day
Your grace, your face, your lace draped, or slung 
Your coy unfaked, unmeditated laugh
Your craft, and graft, your unabashed mind
You're Kind, you're fine, delineate the line
May I seize you today and make you mine

26.09.13

Monday, August 12, 2013

Dissipation

Nothing after you
Idealized soul and goddess
Of pagan beauty

Flexed muscles of you
Surge in me
The current of loveliness
Stirred in me

Your form like Venus
After you meaninglessness
I sit, waiting for my gods

Tell me what to do
Have you left me
After that climax of years
After I've tasted that honey

I would find another love
To get excited with
But no such carnality stirs

Should I renounce lust after you
Nothing again to come close
Should I seek the Buddha now
Some internal eternal truth

The dissipation of the self
No longer one in you

04.08.13